After I was married, I was praying and praying that God would bless us with a precious baby. We also had friends from our Church and my Aunty Joyce praying for us. I had complete faith that I would be a Mum.
When we found out that I was pregnant, my Hubby and I were so overjoyed - this was our dream come true. I prayed every day through my pregnancy - praying specifically for the development and growth of our little baby. I love the verse "You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex." (Psalm 139: 13-14). The image that I held close to my heart was the image of Jesus holding our baby - I knew this to be the truth - that our baby was safe in the loving arms of our God.
When I first held our little girl in my arms, I felt so incredibly happy and felt so blessed - our baby - a miracle - God's gift to us. The first night I could not sleep (I actually did not sleep since I was so excited), I kept watching our little girl - she was so so beautiful - she was ours - thank you God.
As I write these words "thank you God" - these words, any words, do not seem enough. And so the best way I can show my gratitude to God is to follow Jesus, to study the life and examples of Jesus, to be brave and confident in declaring that I Am A Christian Woman and that I Choose To Be A Christian Mum. I am claiming and naming myself - I Am A Christian Mum - I am making this commitment in reverence to God. This is my chosen journey.
I have always been a person that loves to read books and I have a lot of books - most of my books since my twenties have been on self-development. Yet since becoming a Mum I have read less books - firstly because I have had less time, also because of Google, yet mainly because I have learnt to trust myself and my intuition, which is governed and guided from the Holy Spirit. What a gift to A Christian Mum - the Holy Spirit - 24/7 available to guide me. And I have also discovered the power of prayer and the joy of having a personal relationship with God - what a gift to be able to feel the presence of Jesus with me in every moment.
Before I became a Mum I did buy a few books from a local bookshop, where I was recommended 'The Complete Buddhism For Mothers'. When I see this book on my bookshelf, it seems strange that I did buy this book. Soon after, in my conversations with God, I felt inspired to write about being A Christian Mum. Of course I challenged this calling - who am I to write about being A Christian Mum, especially since I am still learning about what it means to be A Christian. Why Me? In my Church community and Life Group, there are so many other incredible women - they seem to know all of the Bible stories, and know passages off by heart and know how to pronounce all of the unusual names - and they have been living a Christian life for so much of their life - perhaps they know more - they should be writing this Blog. Yet God reminds us and prompts us and encourages us - and so here I am. Here I am to share my unique journey - my quest to learn and grow in my faith - my commitment of I Am A Christian Mum.
I am now discovering and enjoying and loving the greatest book of all - the Bible! I am making the commitment to read and study God's Word daily as part of my journey to live and be A Christian Mum. It will not just be about reading the Bible - but about being inspired through God's Word - what is God specifically saying to me - what is relevant for my life and my role as a Mum. Today I was at a Christian bookshop and I was buying books for my little girl and my nieces and was looking around to see if I should buy any books for myself - and I felt the whisper of God "read the Bible, read the Bible, read the Bible - spend time in God's Word". I heard it - loud and clear!
The journey of every Mum, the journey of every woman is unique. This is not about me feeling like I have all of the answers or telling others how to be a Mum - this is about my journey - this is about me choosing to be A Christian Mum and this Blog is about me being active in learning, reflecting and sharing. I am handing over my complete trust to God - I choose to follow him. My greatest prayer is that I can model being A Christian to my children, that I can love like Jesus, and that they too will enjoy a close relationship with Jesus - I pray this in Jesus' name, Amen.
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